Friday, 17 August 2012

What I'm Not Writing

I had planned on posting a blog last evening, but as it turned out I ended up in a deep conversation, with my husband! I can't tell you how happy it makes me that we agreed to set aside some time to talk and we actually did. Pretty much my whole world knows how I am feeling since I have begun this post, but very little knew the inner feelings of my husband, including me. Despite my numerous attempts to get him to open up he just couldn't because unlike me he just wasn't ready (though I can't imagine he has much to complain about because men love sex, right?), anyway, last night he did, and it touched my heart. My husband loves me through and through, and despite struggles with his own feelings, he is much more concerned with listening to and supporting me, like a true Gentlemen. I just can't say enough that I am completely thrilled to have a solid relationship with my very best friend, to get me through all of this!

Here is a poem I found and I thought I'd share, because I'm going to go and talk with my husband again :) (I may post again later this evening)

Some dream of big houses
Or shiny new cars,
Ours is to someday
Hold a baby that's ours.
Some dream of more money
To hoard and to keep,
Mine is to someday
Rock my baby to sleep.
Some dream of careers
In buildings so tall,
His is to someday
Kick his kid a football.
Some dream of great power
To be strong and tough,
Ours is to someday
Have a child to love.
Some dream of things
Such as silver and gold
Ours is of the day
Our child we'll hold.

-Author Unknown
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4 comments:

  1. Unknown17 August 2012 at 14:39

    Please leave comments (you may even post anonomously) I welcome your input!

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  2. Anonymous17 August 2012 at 19:06

    I am so happy that you are able to converse with your husband. Most times, that is the camel that breaks a marriage through the trial times.

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  3. Anonymous20 August 2012 at 05:03

    I know that sometimes I forget that this journey is as painful for him as it is for me. When I see him longingly look at a child it breaks my heart and as a woman I feel incredibly useless. I really hope that you, me and every other couple going through this make it to the other side or find peace with it.

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  4. Unknown20 August 2012 at 09:43

    Thank you so much for the comments! I know I try hard to hear his side, but I do often find myself telling him that he just doesnt understand, but I know he does, and even if he doesn't he tries damn hard to. I certainly hope we can all love our spouses, regardless if we are acheiving what we want (baby) because if those things dont work out for us, our love for each other is all we have.

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